Chocolate Cake, You are not my friend. Not now, not ever.

Weight 151.8

Today, one of the ladies in the office was passing out donuts and I said No thank you. I was quite proud of myself. I actually viewed this as an accomplishment. Then the new girl brought in home made chocolate cake and I couldn’t say no. I just had to try a teeny piece and that said teeny piece turned into 3 teeny pieces. Silly me, I know better.

I have my weigh in tonight. Days like this I am happy for the motivation and listening to my leader talk. A little Weight Watcher brain wash is exactly what I need right now, let me tell you. I’m feeling tubby and frumpy again, but I know that’s because my TOM is due in a couple days.

I’m a little concerned about Friday. I’m getting my last 2 wisdom teeth yanked from my mouth, which means I’ll be eating pudding for 3-4 days. The all pudding diet is never good for weight loss for some strange reason. Any one know any tricks to staying pull on a liquid diet? At this point, I’m pretty open to advice!

And here’s me today:

Food that escaped the garbage

I am pleased to announce that my purge is complete. I have thrown out every morsel of food that could trigger a binge. I feel relieved; almost like that food was haunting me.

Food that I decided to keep was:

Mini Freezies – 10 calories a Pop. Fabulous in the summer when you have a sweet tooth.

100 Calorie Mint Chocolate Cadbury Bars – 2 points and a life savor when it’s TOM

VitaMuffin 100 Calorie Muffin Tops – 1 point and worth every bite. I can never eat more then one anyway.



I am a little in love with the Smart Ones Desserts. I like the Strawberry Shortcake the most but the Double Fudge Cake is pretty damn good. I’ve only been able to find the Strawberry Shortcake at Superstore, so if anyone has seen it elsewhere let me know.



I made a very healthy stir fry last night with my own sauce made from scratch over brown rice. Doesn’t it look tasty? I probably shouldn’t have added the cashews, but I decided to live a little. Without the cashews it’s 8 points.

I feel excellent today. I took a walk at lunch and I’ve been drinking my water. I am concentrating on tracking and making healthy choices, more so then staying within my points range. I only get a measly 21, which leaves me really hungry unless I eat pounds and pounds of veggies.

My question to y’all is how do you stay full on minimal points?

My name is Cass, and I'm a Food Addict

Weight 152.6

I go through the same pattern over and over again. I get close to 160, panic and drop back down to 148, then binge eat until I get up to 160 again and the cycle continues. I’m starting the binge cycle again and I don’t know how to stop. Every where I look I see forbidden food, that in my mind I believe I deserve. The deserving turns into bingeing because I can’t control myself.

I’d like to blame my bingeing on stress or just juggling a lot in my life but in my heart I know it’s none of those things. I’ve been much more stressed and juggled much more and managed to eat less. Honestly, I am a food addict and like any good addict knows, having the source of the addiction in the house, needs to stop. I clearly cannot control myself after work.

Last night I threw away all the trigger foods in my pantry and fridge. This included the home made double chocolate chip cookies a lady at the office made and the cool ranch Doritos. How did these sneak into my house anyway, I should know better. If I’m going to pig out, I want it to be on grapes or apples.

I wasn’t walking at lunch like I always do for over a month. I got myself out there Monday Tuesday and today so far and will continue for the rest of the week. I’m not going to push myself too hard with activity or I’ll just quit.

I started Physio last week for my RSI in my fore arm and wish I had started it sooner. The RSI was getting so bad; my fingers were going numb at night. Already the pain is greatly reduced, to which I am greatly relieved. I’ve been very lazy with cooking because even chopping veggies hurts my arm.

My bingeing aside, I still feel pretty good about myself. I went to a party on Saturday and felt thin and attractive, which I would never have felt a couple years ago. Here’s a picture of me at the party:

Beautiful

This post on Operationbeautiful.com made my day. That is all.

Make Fiber your Friend!

Weight 148.2


RescuingLisa reminded me yesterday how much I love my Bran Buds. I eat about half a cup of these crunchy little pellets everyday, either on top of my cereal or mixed in with some yogurt. Now I don’t want to lie to you, they aren’t very yummy. They are down right tasteless and plain. But the wonderful thing about Bran Buds is the Fiber. Fiber is your friend, or it should be.

Nutritional Information per 1/3 cup (28 g)

Fat 1g
Cholesterol 0g
Sodium 200mg
Potassium 280mg
Carbohydrate 22g
Fiber 11g (this is 44% of your daily requirement, 25g being ideal)
Protein 3g

Now why should fiber by your friend you might ask? There have been many studies conducted on the benefits of fiber, but the one I am most concerned with is what fiber does for my weight loss efforts. This article here mentions that although increased fiber in your diet will not directly make you lose weight, it will a) keep you full longer and b) regulate your blood sugar levels.

This is important because as we are on a calorie reduced diet, we want to be eating foods that will prolong that feeling of fullness for as long as possible. I know it keeps me from reaching for the box of donuts at the reception desk in the morning. Now regulating our blood sugar levels is also extremely important because this keeps our cravings for sugar at bay. When we eat a chocolate bar for example, our blood sugar spikes, then drops very rapidly. Our body then craves another spike. Fiber keeps our blood sugar levels from falling or spiking.

In all honesty though, I don’t eat Bran Buds for the above reasons. I eat them because we have chronic constipation in our family and nothing has worked like my Buds have worked. This article here says a healthy colon should weigh 4 pounds, but some autopsies have revealed swollen colons weighing 40 pounds due to build up of waste. By eating over 25 g of fiber a day, I am removing harmful waste from my colon and intestines and keeping build up to a minimum, which means I keep that 36 pounds of poop from making a home in my body.

Do your body a favor, eat some fiber. This doesn’t mean you have to eat Bran Buds. Fruits and veggies pack a lot of fiber too, so don’t neglect them either.

My Food today:

Maple & Brown sugar Weight Control Oatmeal – 3 points + 6g of Fiber
1/3 cup Bran Buds – 1 point + 11g of Fiber
1/3 cup skim milk – 1 point
Sandwich thin – 1 point + 5g of Fiber
Fat-Free sliced Turkey – 2 points
Lite-May 1 tsp – 1 point
Jarlsberg Cheese – 4 points
½ cup Cucumber – 0 points
Fiber 1 Oats and Chocolate – 2 points + 5g of Fiber
1 apple medium – 1 point + 4g of fiber
BBQ Chicken breast – 4 points
BBQ Sauce – 2 points
Yukon nugget potatoes 4 – 4 points + 3g of Fiber
Mixed Veggies ¾ cup – 1 point + 2g of Fiber

Total: 27 points and 36g of Fiber!!

New Haircut!!

I’m still holding steady at about 148 pounds. I’m debating on whether or not I want to lock in at this weight and go for my lifetime membership at Weight Watchers. I’ve certainly lost my drive to drop anymore weight, but I would like to continue to go to meetings and receive all the wonderful advice my leader has to offer.

I ate way more than I had planned this weekend. Steve and I had a True Blood marathon, complete with popcorn and licorice. It was so much fun! True Blood is such a wicked series.

Saturday Steve locked his keys in the car, poor guy. This stressed him out to no end, so we went for a greasy breakfast. All hail Bon’s and their $2.95 breakfast special. Watched The Road in the evening which was quite disturbing, a movie about a Father and Son trying to survive the end of the world amidst cannibals and thieves. Terribly sad.

I spent most of Sunday taking apart our old bedframe, organizing furniture and going through our closets. I also went shopping with my best friend in the whole wide world at Ikea and Home outfitters. We had a blast, but consumed half a large package of peanut M&M’s. Whoops.

Food Today:

Bran Buds, Fruit and Yogurt Special K with Strawberries and Soy (6 points)
2 Hardboiled eggs (4 points)
Lite Mayo (1 point)
Orowheat Sandwich thin (1 point)
Yogurt (1 point)
Apple (1 point)
Carrots (1 point)
Fiber one bar (2 points)
Turkey Meat balls w/ sauce (6 points)
Rice ½ cup (2 points)
Veggies (1 point)

Total: 28 points not too shabby!

Oh and my new haircut! I love it! Looks even better curly!

Cookie Monster

I've been letting cookies in the house again. It all started with these cute little Girl Guides who outsmarted me out of $4. I had the best of intentions. I was going to bring the cookies to work and leave them at the reception desk. Around 6 o'clock, they started whispering sweet nothings in my ear. Promising just one little cookie was all I needed too subdue my feelings of cookie deprivation. So I ate one. To make it even I ate one Blondie, one chocolate. I remembered how when I was a child, my Oma would give me Girl Guide cookies with tea. I missed my Oma dearly all of a sudden, so I brewed a pot of tea.



After consuming half the package of cookies with my Pot O' Tea, I got to thinking. Who brings in half a box of Girl Guide cookies? That just looks tacky. I had a bit of a stomach ache at this point, but I still rationalized keeping the cookies close at hand. I walked into the bathroom, lifted my shirt and stared at my muffin top in the mirror. Clearly, I did not need anymore cookies. The cats wandered into the bathroom behind me, and also starred up at my muffin top.

The cookies are now at the bottom of the trash can. Covered in used kitty litter. Just in case. No more whispering cookies.